Bully!Russia(Ivan) x Bullied!Reader - Mean

You sighed as your name was called. This was it this is your chance to show them what you can do, and also what you thought about that same that one person; your bully Ivan before you moved. Yeah you were going to move, to a nice city called New York right after you did this. You went to the stage and took the microphone, as the the other contestants for the talent show and the audience. You spotted a certain blondy/baige(A/N: depending if you read the manga or watched the anime) before starting.

"You, with your words like knives
And swords and weapons that you use against me
You have knocked me off my feet again
Got me feeling like I'm nothing
You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard
Calling me out when I'm wounded
You picking on the weaker man" you sang as you remembered that one time...

Flashback

You bit your lip as you were slammed agaisnt a locker. Your personal bully, Ivan, had you pinned at your lockers. Some standbyes watched but did nothing, fearing that the same would happen to them if they even said anything. The usual words came from his mouth, today was different. "You have my money?" he said, making sure to hold you up as you were pinned. You shook your head, but you weren't looking at him in the face. This made him realize you were realize you were lieing, so he punched you, which made you fall to the ground. "You little lieing bitch" he spat as he took your bag, emptying the contents from inside, making your $5 which was your lunch money, fall out into his grasp. Taking it and putting it in his pocket, before saying more hurtfull words, words you've learned to get used to.

End of flashback

You saw Ivan just a little shock, you knew he was planning on beating you right after this, but you didn't care, you were going to leave this place for good, then no harm could come to you right? You went ahead and continued singing

"You can take me down with just one single blow
But you don't know, what you don't know..." another memory flashed back in your head

Flashback

Ivan came up to you you smiled and said "Hey" but something was odd. He wasn't smiling and he never said his usual 'Privet' instead he punched you and you fell. You felt even more pain when he started kicking you. You felt so much pain that day, between the betrayal and the even more than usual bulling you got that day, the first thing you did that day was grab the razor and dragging it across your wrist, but that was one of the many things he didn't know.

End of Flashback

Yes you two were once friends but that was a long time ago. You didn't know if he remembered those times but you chose to believe that he didn't rather than he did and he didn't care. You sang the next verse thinking about your future and what your parents had told you.

"Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?" you sang.

Flashback

You got home from another day of the hell on earth place knowed as school. Now you found something weird, your mom and dad were on the couch talking about something. The main thing was that your dad was home early along with your mom. "(Y/N) can you come here for a second" your mother (M/N) said as you walked to were they were. "(Y/N) were moving to New York" your dad said.

End of flashback

That was only a week ago. And to be honest you could only think how hard it would be to transfer in the middle of the year, but oh well.

" You, with your switching sides and your walk-by lies and your humiliation
You, have pointed out my flaws again as if I don't already see them
I'll walk with my head down trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress you
I just wanna feel okay again" you sang

Flashback

Your books had been pushed out of your hands and as usual it was Ivan. "Privet slut" he said as you stayed quiet looking down before you got down to pick up your books scattered around the floor. "Aww look the slut can't even defend herself" he said as some of his ((A/N: dique)) 'friends' laughed as you finished picking them up and got up.

End of Flashback

You continued singing as everyone cheered you on. 
"I'll bet you got pushed around, somebody made you cold
But the cycle ends right now 'cause you can't lead me down that road
And you don't know what you don't know"

Flashback

Your seven year old body was on the swing alone. You were never liked so you always sat alone. Until you saw a boy of your age crying under a tree. You walked towards him and soon was infront of him "Hey whats wrong? you asked the crying boy. "They don't like me cause they think I'm scary" he said and you frowned "I don't think your scary, you wanna be friends?" she asked and he looked at her nodding "friends forever right?" he said. "right!" she said. 

End of Flashback

"Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean" You sang finishing off the song. ((A/N: I realize theres more but I wont do it)) as the auditorium grew loud with cheering, as you bowed and left the stage. As you walked off to meet your parents who were in the truck waiting for you, you herd your name being called "(Y/N)!" A russian voice rang through your ears and you turned around. The same russian who was once your friend, but now your enemy was standing there, and once you saw him you started walking back to the car your parents were in. "(Y/N) I'm sorry for the pain I caused you, I was being stupid and I didn't realize what I did until it was too late, do you think we can be friends again?" He said. You opened the car door and got inside. closing the door but lowering the window. Before the car sped off a simple sentance was herd come out of your mouth.

"I'm sorry but once something is truley gone, you can never get it back."
((cookie for the person who realizes where thats from))